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I want to be so thin...

that I can dance between the raindrops in a downpour

Created on 2006-07-20 09:51:09 (#10711373), last updated 2006-07-23

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Name:	justletmeshrink
Location:	United States

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I have an ED. Which one? It's anyone's guess these days. Used to be COE, but I no longer overeat. Technically, you'd say I have ED-NOS. I'm not quite anorectic yet, particularly with BMI requirements, but I'm headed in that direction. Thanks to years of COE, I'm way over what I should be, nevermind being anywhere close to perfection. Some days I don't eat much. Some days I eat kinda normally. Some days I weigh myself once and somedays I weigh myself three times. Whenever I look in the mirror, I see two things: a disgusting blimp and a pretty girl with a lot of potential (if only she were thin). I'm terrified of gaining weight. I'd rather starve. I'm afraid of losing control...well, period, but particularly in the food area. If being fat is that price of full recovery for EDs, I won't buy it. It's not worth it. And, unfortunately, I think that being fat IS the price of full recovery. So, I have no intentions of recovering. I'd rather keep this up 'til I get thin. I know it's messed up, but I don't care. I DO believe that it's my life, my body, and my choice.

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ana, anorexia, compulsive overeating, dieting, eating disorder, eating disorders

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